Gen, Street Fighter
I’d like to talk a little about focus and stress this week, if you’ll let me. I have an obsessive, addicting personality where I’ll get an idea or a question stuck in my head and I won’t be able to let it go, even months or possibly years later. When it’s something positive or creative, it’s great and that’s where a lot of growth comes from, and my entire life can be changed for the better. When it isn’t, things come to a complete stop while the thoughts churn their way through. I still learn and grow from it, but it’s more expensive, more destructive. At the moment I seem to be stuck between the two extremes. On the one hand, my photography is better and more consistent that it’s ever been. More people are seeing my work and I’ve met some great folks because of it. Goals that I set years ago are finally being reached and I’m so close to the rewards that I can’t even express the excitement in words. All of that is contrasted by the black dogs of depression, stress, and anxiety. I don’t go out much or see my friends often. There’s always doubt that I’ve made the wrong decisions and ruined everything.
It’s a fine line to walk and I don’t have any answers, but deep down I feel like I’m moving in the right direction. I may move slow and I may make mistakes along the way, but all I can do is stay focused and moving forward.
go get the medicine